I guess the last time I wrote in a blog was in 2020 and so much had changed since then. As I sit here by the window in my old home again after 7 years I find myself thinking back to that year in 2020 when the entire world changed for everyone really but it was really only the begin of a whirlwind that brought about this place where I am now.
I would have never expected that here I would sit. Divorced, alone and back in this house with the year 2024 closing up as one of the hardest I have ever navigated. This year I have learned so much about love, life, people I thought were close and that I thought loved me and a LOT about myself. I have also grown so close in my relationship to God as he has been the constant walking with me.
So with much more to be done in this place and grateful for all the Lord has allowed me strength to do I sit here and ponder in my heart this year.....closing it out to a new one where my name will change back to as it was before I married Michael and in a lot of ways it is like we are supposed to pretend the past 7 years never happened. I just wish someone would explain that to my heart, as it is did not get the memo on it all.
I will be ok.......in time. My boys will be ok (now that one is a man fully and Marine and the other is rapidly turning into one). I think in time with healing it will all be ok. I just have to keep moving and weather the storm.
